I just want to take a bit of time today to enjoy a wonderful feeling I’ve been having lately; gratitude.
I’ve gone through a terrible year so far, one filled with disappointments, difficulties and the death of my Grandma. Along the way I’ve had moments where I felt myself sinking into despair or losing optimism and hope amid all the drama.
I hated that.
I’ve always tried to remind myself of how lucky I am to be alive, even when nothing was going as I wanted it to go. I know there are people out there going through things infinitely worse than I am, as well as people who had to face the reality of losing their own lives far too early and unexpectedly.
No matter what happens to me, I’m still here at this moment. I’m still alive. It’s easy to lose track of that on a daily basis, you know, with all our individual desires and the thousands of random things that happen to us.
We can get caught up in the moment and lose sight of the bigger picture of life. I know it was happening to me, but I’m extremely grateful for the fact that it’s stopped for a while.
The past few weeks have been filled with hard work, very little sleep and me running around doing favors for a lot of people. Every time I felt like I would get a day of rest or have time to just do something I wanted to do, something else came up that required my help.
While that might seem like an annoyance, I’m happy it’s happened. Look, life is one giant, complicated issue. I can’t pretend to fully understand it or the reasons behind why so many different things happen to all of us, so I won’t try.
I’ll just say that it’s weeks like this that remind me that while I can’t solve the giant puzzle, I can do my part everyday to make the most of the time I do have here to make an impact on the lives of the people who know me.
I’ve seen before that life is a marathon and not a sprint and I fully agree. That’s why I’m thankful right now, because I’m comfortable knowing that most of the decisions I’ve made and continue to make may not always equal instant gratification, but they leave indelible marks on the lives of those I love and care for.
So maybe I’ve still got a ton of things to resolve, money to make, work to get done and dreams to keep chasing. But whether or not I reach some of those goals today, tomorrow or in the next year, I’ll live each day knowing I’m doing what I can, with what I have, for those around me.
If I keep that up and can pass some of that mentality to those same people, the way my Grandma and other family members, mentors, and friends have done for me, then I feel like it’s all worth it.
I’m going to sleep happy tonight, regardless of all the problems I’m facing. For that I’m thankful.
“If I die tomorrow I’m fine, I’ve been blessed.”